More than just me

Its funny since last Saturday I really have focused more on be selfless rather than selfish. I am seeing the less i focus the world seems open to me. My higher power is really looking out for me. I've been becoming friends with more women from program, and I really appreciate them. I'm starts friends who feel accept me for me, rather than having to be someone else for them. As afraid was about going parents holidays I feel like i can handle it I just have to use the tools of the program. Friday is going month of sobriety and I'm not going to let anything stop me. I'm going to do whatever it takes to keep getting better and moving forward.

Hello

Hello world! I don't really know why I'm staring this blog, but maybe I feel a bit a drift out in a huge universe and am reaching out. I have been lurker on some adoptions boards for a while since me being the extreme type a personality (and procrastinating from grad school work at the same time) wants to know what to expect in like 10 years when I most likely will be at that stage of my life.Well I recently commented on a post from a women from that board post about a possible placement that has a lot if issues similar to the ones I faced health and development wise as a small child, and i turned out as a fairly normal high achieveing graduate student. However i sort of hope she doesn't start reading ths blog and fear her possible daughter will turn into a drunk, because of all the things connected in my life I think those two have very little to do with each other.

So yeah i am an acholic, recently I feel like that all my life is. Its like my life is now defined more by the absence of alchol then when it was defined by the presence of it. I am stressing out and procrastinating at the moment on phd apps and more pressing two finals papers. Its just like my mind is full.

In addition to being in recovery I am a politics nut, who LOVES the superme court, especially old case histories, and no for the millionth time I have no interest in going to law school. I guess part of my starting this blog is to have a place to vent about world events in too. Well I don't know if anyone will ever read this but thats me.